My greatest fear before coming here was to be lonely. A fear that made me want to move into a shared apartment, a fear that dragged me to various 'Meetups' for newcomers in the city. A fear that i now do not fear anymore.
After six weeks of living here i have noticed every person i have met so far is lonely in some way. Some physically and some emotionally. Although one has people around to talk , have a drink , go out or cook with at the end one always feels lonely. This is so in my case. I live with a great girl in a beautiful apartment in a lovely borough as mentioned in previous posts. But although my life is so good at the moment and i cannot complain, at the end of the day i am struck with loneliness. Suprisingly this does not bother me anymore, at first i dreaded the thought of having to do things by my own, things i used to do with friends or family. And now i can enter a cafe with a book order a coffee and some carrot cake without worrying about being alone. Offcourse I cannot say i like being alone but like Janet Fitch said : 'Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way'
It is has been 6 weeks since i moved to Berlin. Unbelievable ! I planned to